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A bit of a change! [Aug. 3rd, 2009|03:10 pm]
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As you can all see, I've nary updated in two weeks for various reasons. Since it makes no sense for me to try and keep a schedule that clearly isn't working; I've decided on a new plan. For shorter, more consistent updates - you can follow my Twitter! Then, I'll try to update weekly with a piece of writing on here. I'm going to work on this new plan very diligently, since Twitter fits into my schedule much more easily.
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X-Men ramblings! [Jul. 7th, 2009|08:19 pm]
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[Audio |Mao Denda - Bitter Sweet ~Bedtime Version~]

Instead of posting something worth substance; I decided to indulge my current escapism and rant about various thoughts I'm having about the X-franchise and the like - including Wolverine and the X-Men thoughts, looking at earlier 00s issues, and more.

  • As much as I abhor Reginald Hudlin's handling of Storm in the mainstream universe, one of the reasons I was so frustrated was because - and I only remembered this as of ten minutes ago - that his first handling of Ororo was incredible. I would pull the pages and just show you, but since I'm trying to find preview pages posted in... 2005; I'll just include the dialogue. This was from Black Panther Vol 4 issue 7; which was a House of M tie-in issue (thusly, this character is Queen Ororo of Kenya rather than Ororo Iqadi T'Challa-Munroe of the main Marvel Universe) and the context is a scene where Magneto and Quicksilver are watching television;

    On the television; scene of malnourished child.

    Voiceover: This is Africa, as we once knew it - a continent of starvation, tribal warfare, disease and drought...

    Image of child changes to highrise skyscrapers and mechanized farming.

    VO: ...And this is Africa today, with mutant leadership replacing corrupt human rule. Literacy is up, unemployment is down, and peace is breaking out everywhere. From basket case to the world's breadbasket, Africa is on the move! Today on "Alison", we have an exclusive interview with the woman who made this change possible - Queen Ororo of Kenya!

    Alison Blaire: Queen Ororo, would you agree that Africa is the best example of how life is better under mutant rule?

    Queen Ororo of Kenya: There's no doubt that various regimes exploited Africa terribly. From the slave trade to apartheid, Africa has been a victim to a series of moral abominations condoned by world governments, religions and businesses.

    AB: Well said!

    QO: Magneto has installed leadership that actually cares about the people on this continent, and for that, we are grateful. I am very, very proud of being a mutant. But I do not believe that the mutant gene includes some inherent moral superiority. Mutation is a scientific fact, not a character statement.

    AB: Perhaps you might want to explain what you mean so some viewers don't get the wrong idea... heh heh...

    Magneto: Yes, explain yourself, you traitorous wench!

    Quicksilver: Father...

    QO: Gladly. Castro once claimed that racism was a natural byproduct of capitalism, and that the communist system would naturally eradicate prejudice. Wrong.

    M: You can't compare the two! Humans really do hate difference!

    QO: No "ism" is going to fix the persistence of prejuduce without specific solutions. We have to acknowledge that the myth of white supremacy continues in the mutant-controlled world.

    AB: What do you mean by that?
    M: What do you mean by that?

    QO: I mean the ideal is still a white person with a human appearance. I haven't noticed any furry, feathered or scaled beings deliver the news, have you?

    Q: Good point.

    AB: Er, enough with politics... What's going on in your love life?


    At which point Magneto smashes the TV - and despite the relatively crappy characterization he received; I honestly adored these two pages. They were incredible! To see Ororo - who since '75 has been a constant presence in terms of being a woman of colour as well as an established hero in her own right - actively recognizing, speaking up against and acknowledging white supremacy (and recognizing it's existence in the context of cross-sectionalism) is incredible! While the lack of Feminism or Womanism mentioned is troubling; and leads to... well, this. A presentation that renders Ororo as childish instead of as childlike. I may write more about this, but I'll say that for all of Reginald Hudlin's admirable work in addressing white supremacy within a Western context, he completely re-enforced the problematic misogynistic themes that exist within male-dominated black empowerment movements. And my opinion of her current marriage can be expressed succinctly via a quote from stormantic in the above linked entry;

    Here’s the thing. I love Storm and Black Panther together. I have always liked the idea of them as a couple. However, I am not a fan of how quickly Marvel rushed them into marriage.


  • I actually really, really liked the status quo during Reload. This isn't to say I didn't like the previous era (despite Grant Morrison's de-rail of Magneto and the likely-editorially mandated killing of one of my favourite characters) - I adored the latter half of X-Treme; there were incredible themes and ideas expanding there. Ororo creating her own branch of the X-Legacy by creating the XSE (internationally sanctioned UN mutant marshals), most of the original New Mutants joining the team, Rogue having no powers and being incredibly cool, possible return of Psylocke, and most of all - international traveling!

    That being said, Wow - did I forget how many ideas I enjoyed during Claremont's third run at Uncanny. Betsy returning the way she did, Ororo flirting with both Kurt and Logan and beginning to relish her anger (compared to simply embracing it beforehand), Sage returning to the Hellfire Club to make sure Sunspot stayed on their side, Emma being written in a likable way... Granted, this was offsetted by ideas I didn't enjoy (Rachel reading much, much less competent and younger; X-23 growling and again, feeling less competent; Bishop being Bishop) but for the most part I really did adore it. And the Andy Park arc! The art was lovely, to the point I remember a friend of mine bringing up how I'd like it because of the fashion. I loved the school and the exploding population ideas from pre-ReLoad mixed with the primary colour fun of ReLoad. And then House of M happened. And it wasn't even good (as an event, as a universe it has serious potential; note the above Queen Ororo of Kenya bit).

    Also, New X-Men. I adored those kids, and I was heartbroken when Marvel just up and announced new writers and not even acknowledging that the previous writers were kicked off. I actively stopped buying New X-Men at that point, because it was just the worst kind of insult. It was also of little to no interest to me, what with my favourite characters being de-powered or (literally) blown up in a bus. This isn't to say that Yost & Johnson aren't talented writers - after they disgustingly cleared house they made new engaging characters, and Yost specifically gave me a great joy - whenever I think about the title, my heart hurts a little. Especially when I think of how DeFilippis and Weir were treated.


  • Ah, Wolverine and the X-Men. What a strange little show - it's a show that is predicated in two very different areas. In marketing, Wolverine has to be the leader of the team. In narrative, Wolverine has to be a terrible leader (because he's Wolverine). How do you reconcile the two? By throwing the X-Men in losing situations all the time, and making their two actual leaders look like chumps in two main ways - emotionally (Cyclops) or in battle (Storm). Whereas Wolverine has skills in both, is clearly more suited to battle, but the team just sucks so much compared to him that he can't help but be leader? The plotting in the show is a bit clearer, but I don't really care in that Storm really become one of those constant background characters. Scott is given a lengthy and meaningful reason for his relative incompetence (Jean is missing, and it's shown that Jean is the primary figure that allowed Scott to overcome his emotional awkwardness). Ororo? We see in the 4th episode that she's actually doing what most superheroes should be doing in their spare time; being active in the international community and using their abilities to improve the quality of life for everyone. Then she returns to the team because she sees that making sure the world doesn't become a hellhole in 20 years is a bit of a priority.

    Otherwise, it's mostly her getting kicked in the head or failing to turn around while a Sentinel blasts her. Although, there is one more episode she gets serious screentime in - and it's a bit of a shock why; though I've grown to love it.

    The season introduced Angel rather early on; but he only joins the time in Episode 17. In episode 18, his title episode, one can pretty clearly infer that him and Ororo are romantically involved! Kind of from screens like this. And Ororo making flirting faces like this. And them flying around together. This is an idea that's been toyed with before - most notably in Ultimate X-Men 40. Unfortunately for her, this is the episode that Angel has his wings amputated and is then turned into Archangel. It's actually a rather openly emotional episode for both of them, and Ororo does have one very touching power display - after Warren refuses to stop attacking his father, she sadly raises her hand and makes a fist... calling a lightning bolt to zap Warren and One hit KO him.

    In terms of her presentation though... I love it. Susan Dalian does a wonderful job with her voice; the few instances we see her range - just watch Overflow & Guardian Angel - she does a phenomenal job; mixing the academic diction Ororo speaks in but using it in a casual performance. Her voice has presence when it speaks, but not in a ham-like manner. It's such a shame that out of the 10 episodes she speaks, that there are only 2 or 3 episodes that she has major lines.

    Her design is great. I love her hair; I love how it has this distinctive shape and it's beautiful and it's actually how long hair grows out for many black and brown people. I love her nose in that the bridge travels outward instead of inward. I'm not a fan of her paperthin waist. I am a fan of her civvies; oh man I love those (and Jean's as well). The character design in the show is of incredibly high quality; considering the number of unique characters introduced in the show - this is a huge success. Incredible job.

    Before I forget, though - I do have to bring up that if there's one character that seriously jobs Wolverine, it's Emma. Wow, Emma just manages to.... I'm not even sure if I dislike her or not. She definitely makes an impression on you one way or another, but I'm generally ambivalent towards her - primarily because there are other characters we could do with seeing other than Emma Frost. Show me Wanda more! Show me Storm more! Show me more Psylocke! But Marvel - at all levels - seems obsessed with shoving Emma down our throats as the prototypical X-Woman. Seriously, I like Emma normally. So this is really frustrating.


  • Of the current books, despite the schedule and the desstruction of Forge - I really enjoyed the first arc of Astonishing X-Men from Ellis. I also enjoyed his characterization and writing of Storm; who takes on a group role I've never seen her take before - that of the nonchalant, slightly bored but gregarious old friend. She's clearly Storm, and she had a plan to get back on the team, but she just feels so much more relaxed and comfortable - of course she has questions, but these queries aren't like Scott's rather drawn out rationalizations (and her character merges rather well with everything that happened in Worlds Apart). They aren't even queries. Rather, just observations. She knows what she's doing, and her moods feel very relaxed. While I adore Claremont, his Ororo is sometimes too serious for his own good while he's communicated that she's fun (successfully, for the most part), I want to see other writers take a shot at writing her as fun. Ellis did. And it wasn't as though she was an airhead, rather she was just relaxed and confident in how she felt without being pompous - her scene with Forge broke my heart. I had alot of fun reading this arc. It's such a shame the delays killed quite a bit of the momentum, but this is still quality.

    And I cannot wait for Jimenez to arrive on the title! Oh, I adore how he renders her. And I love that he's cleaning up her Bianchi costume (which I actually really like, for the most part). I think a Jimenez!rendered Storm will do wonderfully with the flat wit that Ellis has given her. I can't wait to pick up this trade and all it's wish-wash fun.


  • Loving X-Men Forever. Jean's alive. She's well. She's Jean again. I can't wait for more Evil!Not!Storm, as well. She's a riot.
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Quick Update! [Jul. 3rd, 2009|08:42 am]
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[Audio |Imaaji - Inside]

No, I'm not gone nor am I not motivated to write; rather I just don't have the time. The past week and a bit has included;

  • Toronto Pride Weekend, which has spurred many topics including 'Diction within the LGBTQI2S movement', 'Codification via sub-categories', and even 'Why having Goals are better than having Expectations'.

  • As I posted last, my Grandmother is in a home and we're not very thrilled with parts of it. I have quite a bit to bring up in this regard, but in terms of time? I've visited her for at least an hour each day (barring the Weekend and yesterday, and Wednesday I was there from Noon - 7:45PM) everday since she was put in.

  • I'm on summer hours at work! Only for July, which means 8:30 - 5:30 Monday - Thursday, but today, being Friday, I get 9 - Noon.


So I plan to do quite a bit of work on those topics and some other X-Men related ones. But this just to say yes! I am not fading into oblivion.
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Feelings are something we need to embrace and cherish and let go. [Jun. 25th, 2009|01:33 pm]
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[Audio |Stephen Endelman - Opening Credits]

I haven't been writing for a few days; because my energy has been somewhat low. These are exceprts from e-mails I've written that may give you an idea why.

I need to go to the home again tonight; and write up a small itinerary at lunch so the nurses know what to do.

...

It is not easy, though. There's three floors, and she's on the second floor. One of the problems we're trying to fix right now is that the second floor is primarily for late-stage dementia patients, and my Grandmother is mid-stage but is pretty quiet. We kept closing the door because random residents came on three separate occasions and just ... tried to come in, and we're like 'this isn't your room'. And then there was this one older Chinese woman who was -screaming- and -wailing- and -crying- like she was at an old-style funeral. We want to have her transferred to the third floor since it's much quieter and they still do full-care (since my Grandmother's physical capabilities are nil, and the first floor is for the physically independent). In terms of architecture and interior design, the place looks exactly like the inside of a hospital, besides a few more furnishings.

My Mom cried a lot (and is a hugely courageous woman, because she still managed to get through a lot of the work despite how upset she clearly was). I was superpissed at my Aunt (as was my Mom) since my Mom was trying to handle the paperwork and started to choke up, and my aunt was like 'Oh, stop dis stupidness'. My Mother pretty much articulated the right response to me later; 'It's none of her business how and when I cry. Who is she to say that? She wasn't even here, living with her! She barely did anything to help out!'. Of my Mom's siblings, the only ones really with a strong quality of common sense in this context are the three youngest (my Mom, my Aunt who works for the City, and my Uncle from Florida). My Mom feels really guilty - she still doesn't want to do this; the problem is that her own health is decreasing at a consistent and scary rate. I told her (not in this manner, but the message was clear) that it's a difficult choice choosing between her and my Grandmother, but I -will- choose her - no questions asked. Even if she won't.

We're planning to bring her out on weekends as well; like every other weekend at the least. But everything just feels really... out of whack. There's a strange lack of equilibrium.

...

I'm alright; just sort of - the biggest thing for me is developing a schedule that allows me to have my own social life and relish that while still doing justice towards my grandmother by visiting her on a regular basis. I'm developing an unhealthy sense of guilt already towards this, and I need to nip it in the bud because guilt does not help. Working on a plan will.

My Mom brought up the fact that while she's here, we have to be very visible with the staff (who are all awesome; one of the things that are frustrating is that my Mom and I really developed a repore with the staff on the 2nd floor, but not as much on the 3rd). I met the Activity Coordinator with my Mother, and she was really sweet - she carried herself well, very informative and she got along with my Grandmother well. My Mom was suspicious when they told her that they check on them every two hours, but from 3 to 7 we didn't have anyone. I assumed that it was because there was company there, but I'm not sure. They feel fine and they seem incredibly competent and friendly, but I have no experience in this so I don't know how to meaningfully discriminate. They did go out of their way though to actually help us with making the request to transfer floors though; so they definitely aren't openly vicious or the like (they actually recommend transfers themselves when they see a resident who isn't in the appropriate floor, so I hope that helps).

...

Well, she goes to sleep very early - at around 7PM or so. Meals together aren't really any option with work and the like; which is why it's important to bring her out every other weekend. Honestly, doing that and visiting her maybe twice a week will probably be good. It feels like a good amount. Honestly, it's more than I saw her at home - most of the time when I got home she was asleep, and when I left in the morning she was just waking up.

Oh, I do (think about my parents like this in the future). And I know that I won't be able to manage, imagining it right now. I just won't be able to.


As you've probably gathered, my family and I have had to put my Grandmother in a fulltime care facility. This, combined with a Pride that could potentially be incredibly eventful, has really thrown me into a state of unease. I will work through them, but I somehow seem to be finding the strength to work through it. I hope that with my continued effort, this gets easier rather than more difficult. If that isn't the case, I'll still try my best.
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Beyond Human Or Machinery - The X-Men's Karima Shapandar. [Jun. 22nd, 2009|01:35 pm]
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[Audio | - 11. Peaceful Days]

I look for paper mirrors quite a bit - though what's fun is that I can be rather flexible in finding them. I suppose I see a lot of myself in quite a diverse selection of characters. One of the factors that appeal to me in terms of a paper mirror is cultural identity. I identify as West-Indian (ethnically, I'm Indo-Guyanese) - but as a Hindu and a brown person and someone with East Indian ancestors, I find myself drawn to East Indian characters as well. Unfortunately, within Western media, there's a very real and very large lack of Indian characters (and many of them are, unfortunately, very stereotypical in presentation and tone).

That's why I am thrilled with the ongoing dynamic use and inclusion of Karima Shapandar; also known by her X-Men alias Omega Sentinel. A quick primer; Karima Shapandar is an Omega-Prime Sentinel (human beings fitted with nannites so that they become mindless Sentinels) whose original personality and mind were restored to her via the combined efforts of Magneto and Professor Xavier. Previously a detective-inspector in her native Mumbai, she’s now an associate of the X-Men (having been an X-Man, a member of Excalibur, a brainwashed member of the Marauders, and a temporary member of the Acolytes).

Chris Claremont had this to say when asked about her creation and usage;
"I liked the idea of her. The notion... of someone being transformed into a wholly mechanical being and what effects that has on sense of self, sense of soul? She’s an outcast from both human and mutant society, yet bound by her own personal sense of honor to try to protect both. Callisto’s (another character in the Excalibur series) one kind of 'monster,' Karima’s another. They both have their measure of prejudice to overcome."

I adore her narrative; it directly deals with body politics while bringing racist politics and sexist politics along for the ride. One of my favourite aspects of her journey (specifically in Excalibur) is that she was logically going back and forth between aberration and enjoyment in terms of her new status, which cleanly and elegantly lands itself into a clear goal (vocalized in X-Men Vol 2). This is really the most organic way that this could have ended up, because Karima’s consistently demonstrated both a sense of conviction and assertiveness. She’s a police officer. She clearly takes pride in her status and appears to be emotionally tied to her practice of her ethics – clearly upset when she feels she has done something so wrong in a previous life to deserve her new form, but actively engages in psychological healing by working towards a sense of justice and peace. The act of working towards providing justice and peace – by protecting people – would lead her to recognize the great use of her new abilities. Karima can’t undo the past; this has happened and all she can do is heal. And instead of passively falling into despair, she finds solace and healing in taking action – it is very much the practice of Metta (a primarily-recognized-as-Buddhist concept, but is critical in Hinduism (including Shaktism, which Karima seems to practice); actively healing one’s self by acting in the beneficial needs and interests of others.

Subsequently, this leads to an excellent sexist subversion and creates a wonderfully empowering character. Karima may be a victim, but she never actively victimizes herself. Her agency, once in question, is now never in question – while initially there was internal conflict as to what she is, it never became a defeat. That was never a question. Instead, she is active in saving, protecting and fighting for herself and for others. Karima, as a character, while introduced as the love interest of a man, has already overshadowed him and become a notable, fleshed-out character in her own right (and even in her introduction, she was portrayed as an active agent in her life). She was introduced as a person of skill, duty and reliability. And that characterization has continued as such, while she overcame the position of love interest (and as a foil for two older men; as mentioned later). This woman is no Bollywood swooning Indian woman, she is a well-developed character that both relishes her cultural identity and pushes past the stereotypical depictions of it.

For the most part, Karima’s managed to escape being oversexualized and objectified in rendering. Brett Booth, despite a rather unimpressive design, rendered her in a dynamic active manner. Aaron Lopresti rendered her in a wonderful manner (there’s a reason he went on to produce some of the most empowering and respectful Wonder Woman art in the past 10 years) despite a rather odd design; she had clear muscle definition, flat footwear an her posture was not geared towards male gaze T&A shots (though there was at least one odd waist view with ass-boobs view). Chris Bachalo, while not recognizing the muscle definition, managed to portray her with dynamic posture that avoided T&A shots (even when she was nude). Humberto Ramos, unfortunately, did focus on T&A shots but thankfully never got very far due to the full-body coverage of her Bachalo!Design (though we did get some infantilized hairstyles and giant breast shots). Scot Eaton may have had one or two super-curvy-look-ass shots, but they’ve generally been a rarity and never to the point of suspending belief.

The colourist for the Scot Eaton-rendered issues and the Humberto Ramos-rendered issues did, unfortunately, lighten her skin – but never to the point of her original design. I’m frankly very happy that the colourists who worked with Lopresti and Bachalo did make and keep her skin as rather dark; as Colorism is still and issue and it’s incredibly frustrating to see a lack of respect towards the replication of brown skin. I will note that she has not been as much of a victim of this as DC’s Vixen or X-Factor’s Monet, but this is still a very problematic and racist trend. I’m hoping that future appearances restore her skin colour to being as dark as Excalibur-appearances.

While I’ve noted her rendering above; I believe special distinction should be made for her designs (in which there have been primarily 2 specific silhouettes). While her first consistent design (designed by Aaron Lopresti) is rather distinctive, I don’t feel it’s necessarily in a beneficial way. While the outfit itself was rather odd (the strongest visual cue being her silver boots, otherwise it was a rather strange design), the feature to stand out, though, is her hairstyle. While Cliff Richards rendered it in a more natural-appearing manner, it’s just one of the most anachronistic hairstyle choices I’ve seen in that it resembles the movement of dreadlocks (despite it being straight strands of hair). One can see the problem in terms of misidentity – combine a hairstyle that (in silhouette if not texture) is culturally associated with people who are black with a genre that is known for portraying black people as white people with darker skin, and you have a visual coding that leads to blackness. This wouldn’t be a problem if she were a well-fleshed out, breaking-stereotypes black character – but she’s not. She’s most likely of an Indian ethnic group (one of hundreds, if not thousands), and while the Western world doesn't have a lot of hairstyles that are indicative of South Asian hair-that-isn't-imported-from-the-West, choosing hair that has a silhouette as such reads as unintentionally irresponsible when considering visual communication & visual shortcuts. Granted, this could have gone so much worse - he could have gone out of his way to have her wear a full-fledged sari and give her a bindi (despite the, you know, whole not married thing) so this design, showcasing her ease of movement, isn't terrible (and again, he rendered her rather wonderfully, flat footwear, athletic poses and body, etc.). It's just a rather strange choice in terms of what her primary character traits are (cyborg sentinel, cop, Indian, visually-coded as female).

The Bachalo design, however, is something I find as incredibly dynamic and successful - it still manages to give her full body coverage, is meaningfully visually differentiated from the rest of the team (how many X-Men have a combination of white and red and black as their primary colours? None, because that's pretty much Alpha Flight's thing and at this point I'd almost like to see her just join Alpha Flight because she'd visually fit right in). I'm very happy he had went with full body coverage where in this instance, a great number of pencillers would have gone with a close-to-naked design and justified it in story with 'She's a cyborg, who cares what she wears!'. It speaks well of the design when (again, as noted above), other artists have tried to render her in a sexually objectified manner and had trouble successfully doing so via her full-body design. While I would have preferred wavy hair (as pure straight hair like hers is something of a huge rarity in Indian ethnicities), this still isn't bad per say (the hair itself seems pretty thick as is, which is nice). The design is easily recognizable from a distance but doesn't fall apart when up close. It's definitely a rather successful design, so much that I would love to see Aaron Lopresti render her in this design (his rendering is absurdly good, I'm just not a fan of his outfit and character designs as much).

One of the most initially appealing factors for me was the fact that Karima was a practicing Hindu – and as seen here, she maybe a practicing Shaktist (in that the first deity she cried out to was Maadevi). I don’t really have a strong body of characters to which I can actually source as actively identifying as Hindu; my mind tends to go to the (now sadly defunct) Virgin Comics for sourcing Hindu stories (and while it was a great treat; there were some problematic issues – in ‘India Authentic’, the tales involving the goddesses often involved misogynistic tropes (of particular annoyance was Mahasaraswati’s tale), and Devi (while super-awesome) didn’t exactly source the female Hindu or Vedic goddesses (bar Mahadevi), losing a wonderful opportunity to create new interpretations of said goddesses). Otherwise, I tend to draw a blank – and while there are a number of characters inspired by the Hindu pantheon, there aren’t really many known worshippers. Furthermore, as noted above, Karima seems to specifically be a Shaktist (though that’s presumption on my part, in that she hasn’t identified as one per say). This is such a wonderful piece of identity to see; in that Hinduism as a religion tends to not even be portrayed (often the concepts and deities exist, but the worshippers not so much). And when it is portrayed, it’s done so rather clumsily (for a good comparison of the misconception towards Hinduism, check out this article about karma – and then apply the level of misunderstanding to Hinduism & Vedic practice as a whole). While Karima isn’t a perfect example of a practicing-Hindu character (that trait seems to have disappeared entirely during the Mike Carey usage), that fact that it’s an integral factor in her own character arc as well as a source of strength for her was great to see. I really, really hope we see more of her as a practicing Hindu – it’s already clearly established that she’s not fanatical, so consistent-but-not-overbearing-usage of her religious beliefs would be great to see.

One of the interesting notes about Karima’s role in the X-narratives is that she plays a direct foil to both Professor Charles Xavier and Magneto (outside of him being a villain primarily) in a relatively equal manner (as opposed to leaning one way or the other too much). Only a few characters have done as such; Gabrielle Haller, the New Mutants (primarily Dani, Sam, Roberto, Rahne, Amara, Illyana, Doug, and Xian), and possibly Rogue (I hesitate to put Ororo in here; in that despite her getting along with him rather well while he was Headmaster, his subsequent actions in X-Men Vol 2 1-3, and murder of Jean in Planet X probably wiped out the majority of goodwill Ororo had towards him – Rogue is a ‘possibly’, because she was much closer to Magneto than Storm and has also had considerable interaction with Charles). When looking at this list, one can tell very quickly that Karima has a very specific position; different from any of these people – she’s not someone who was a student of theirs (formally, or even for a long period informally), and she was never a romantic interest of either of them. Rather, she’s an adult who has similar training (via her background as a police officer) who was forced into the conflict of mutants VS humans by both her ideological standing and her new status as a living being – which was entirely due to the combined; efforts of both the Professor and Magneto. She’s literally living proof of their potential to bring harmony through co-operation, but this does not rob her of her own personhood; which is notable in that while she’s actively thankful to both of them, she still questions their thinking in a productive manner. Rather than being someone to solely learn from them, Karima actively contributes to both of them – helping them come to new conclusions. Furthermore, she’s an active ally of theirs – rather than support, she’s a front liner (potentially for both of them). It’s an interesting parallel to Rogue, even – one character who’s lived a major part of her life seeking their (potentially failing) help, and one character who’s spent minimal time with them and received an almost total solution (that comparison also makes you feel very, very bad for Rogue). Karima could very, very easily fall into the role of wide-eyed-learn-from-the-white-men ethnic girl (and there have been moments where it’s been close to appearing that way), she has instead been treated as their colleague and friend – someone to respect, care for (when necessary), not infantilize, and recognize as having her own unique body of knowledge which is equally important as theirs. In this manner, Karima herself can be seen as a living example of the X-Dream - even one step further, in that she was forced into a position that should have her killing mutants, but instead works for her own salvation and the salvation of others. There was no question in her human mind that mutants are people, and for a Sentinel to believe this - even if she has a human consciousness - is incredibly poetic.

And poetic contemporary X-Men whom have lasted as long as she has - what with X-world revamps every few months or so - are a rarity. She's managed to stay in use because a number of writers found this gem of a character and worked with her; meaningfully adding her experience and the audiences by including her. She's by far one of my favourite X-characters of all time, and she's only been in published books a handful of times. Karima, rather than draining from the X-mythos like a leech, adds to it in a significant way - by being the sum parts of her heritage and ethics, and adding more. I hope to see her for some time in the future, as a character that may grow in a pace that defies our hectic world. She's definitely a modern-day positive role-model; someone who practices her ethical stance without preaching it to us in a condescending manner. Here's hoping to her growth and beneficial usage as a character, worthy of Maadevi herself.
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Take action with healing. [Jun. 18th, 2009|09:01 pm]
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[Audio |Masuda Toshio - Kaze no Tamakura]

Since the entry I was planning on posting tonight won't actually be posted tonight (I was writing at at work and accidentally left it there), I've decided to write on something a bit more personal. I want to write about healing action. This is a rather long but poignant excerpt, so please bear with me.

Alan Clements: Experience shows that there is often a lag period between the trauma and the action to overcome it. It's a temporary paralysis of the spirit, so to speak. How can one breathe positive significance into despair and hopelessness? How might one give it spiritual meaning and value and turn it around to make it work in his favor?

Aung San Suu Kyi: Let me try to explain this with a very down-to-earth example. I have often noticed this: when there is a simple household crisis, such as for example, the pressure-cooker bursting and throwing soup all over the kitchen ceiling, my first reaction is: "All right, calm down." Just tackle it. Because if you just stand there saying, "The pressure-cooker has burst and it's spurting all over the place," you can get into an absolute tizz. But my reaction is to say, "Well, there's no point getting into a tizz. I can't wish the soup back into the pressure-cooker simmering away in safety. I've just got to get on with cleaning it up." So I turn off the gas, and then I get a rag to clean up the mess. That in itself calms you down. You've got to work. If you're apathetic or filled with hopelessness and despair you've got to do what you can. I can't do anything about the fact that I have lose half the soup. But I can certainly clean up all traces of the disaster. Then I can start thinking, "Now, should I cook a bit more soup? Or should I supplement it with something else?" You get down to work and don't just stand there despairing. That's what I would say to people who feel hopeless and despairing: "Don't just sit there. Do something."

AC: So, in other words, the positive action itself is the healing?

ASSK: Yes. There's always something you can do if you really put your mind to it. I do believe that.

AC: Do you feel that there is ever a need for intimate discussion about the often traumatizing emotions of despair and grief without being indulgent?

ASSK: Of course there is. After all, the bursting of a pressure-cooker is a very minor crisis. But with big crises, for example the loss of a loved one, I believe that people must be allowed to talk about it and work through their feelings. But at the same time, you must encourage these people to get on with life; not just to sit and grieve over the person they have lost. So you have to give them all the emotional support you can, but also try to find something practical for them to do. Such as, to think of those who are still alive and to do something for them.


The act of healing can be anything, but one of the most practical ways to go about healing is by identifying the part of you that feels despair and then doing something with that to show how amazing it is. For example, one's body. If one is feeling despair over one's body - my body's too fat, it's too tall, it's too acne-prone, etc. - then doing something that uses your body, no matter how minuscule, will really help. You don't overcome the despair you feel with your body by making it thin, but rather by realizing how amazing you're fat body is - look at the systems and actions our bodies ourselves take. It's bloody incredible. Look how much your fat body can do. It can form it's own momentum to pick up a glass and lift it. It can do tai chi. It can hug someone in pain and give them warmth and comfort. Those are all incredible, wonderful things. Even the act of breathing.

One of my personal preferences for healing action is speaking about what I want to be true. Sometimes, I become frustrated at behaviour - if people are selfish, or inconsiderate, or mindlessly insensitive. But one can recognize that by becoming frustrated with that behaviour, one risks misconstruing the act with the person. Therefore, I verbally note that if a person is inconsiderate, or selfish or the like, that they may not mean to have done as such - and if I verbally lambaste them, as I wish to, that I will lose any chance for meaningful emotionally-affirming dialogue which is one of the only methods leading to beneficial long-term growth (both culturally and personally). In ignoring that possibility, I will contribute to a culture that alienates people and teaches them that suppressing the majority of our emotions is the only way to survive. I don't want to contribute to that. It's destroyed too much already. By actually vocalizing it, I bring my listening skills in and I begin to feel what I am saying.

Sometimes I fall into such despair over what I've done or said or acted or just how I live. So I affirm the fact that I am feeling that way, and I do something about it. Like now. The act of me writing this affirms that as much as I may make mistakes in the past or feel unwanted, that by writing I am actively contributing to the promotion of a loving radical feminist politic. By doing this, I am affirming my own feelings and working for the benefit of myself and others. In acting in service of the needs of others, I affirm that I can contribute in a meaningful way to both the world and to that specific person. This will allow my sense of self to make way for selfless intention; the intent to do work for the benefit of others with your focus on them. Meaningful selfless intent (where one acts primarily for the benefit of others, but recognizes self-benefit as well) is different from pathological self-intent (recognized often within people who wish to become martyrs in order to be appreciated or noticed).

Community is also so important in terms of healing. One needs to have others who support them to affirm their own feelings of worth and appreciating the hard work we do as human beings. I believe that this is an area that we, as a species, can improve on - both the open giving of compliments, and the receiving of them. Quite frankly, due to the mass oppression instituted by white-supremacist capitalist ableist Patriarchy, the former is much easier to cultivate than the latter. People of minority status are still justified in feeling a great deal of suspicion towards those of privilege, because the use of compliments is often a strategy the person who is complementing uses in order to get what they want. The only meaningful way to heal such suspicion is by being sincere, respectful and sensitive of the complimented party's agency and personhood. Compliments also only work as affirming motivation if the person has established that their personhood is priceless.

As well, privileged parties should also realize that a compliment is not an end, is as an acknowledgment of the progressive work that one has done thus far. It is not an acknowledgment of permanent success. I believe in complimenting the effort a person has put in, because it vocally affirms the effort put into an act - even if it is the minimum. Life is inherently difficult, and while reaching the minimum may be easy for some it is difficult for others. Acknowledging a person's effort is empowering and empowerful. But we do not give compliments to mark the end of said difficult work. Hard work can and will not disappear because being actively kind, courageous, sensitive and honest is inherently difficult. Compliments must always be followed by a 'continue the effort'. The effort must continue, because the act of contributing to the creation of a loving feminist world is evergoing.

Contributing the the creation of a loving feminist world is in itself a healing act; for ourselves and the world. That is the crux of healing - it may focus on one individual, but the consequences of healing are beneficial for all of us. By focusing on healing our mental health (by affirming social justice for all), and recognizing the interconnectedness of our status as human beings, the act of healing will be the revolution necessary for the human spirit.
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I need your help! FAQ and the like. [Jun. 4th, 2009|01:20 pm]
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So, for those of you around and the like - I've been attempting to complete a personal Bio, comments policy and FAQ. This is obviously a precaution - it isn't as though this place is crawling with trolls or the like - but I want to get it into place in case events happen or something. At any rate, here is what I have so far.

About Me, Comment Policy & FAQ )

I am pretty much out of ideas at this point, and I'd really like feedback on what to add. Please don't be shy with your suggestions! There's no 'stupid suggestions' or the like. I want to hear what you have to say, please. I really appreciate it.
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The Scholar and the Brawler and the Tiny Figure! [May. 28th, 2009|10:25 pm]
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[Audio |Smooth J - Aki no Symphony]

Ooooooh, I need to buy these. Look at how cute the Yue Ying is! And the illustration is incredibly good (even if there's a minor error; the bladebow arm is missing her sleeve).

But more importantly, I wanted to (finally!) talk about The Scholar and The Brawler. The Scholar and The Brawler (from this point onward, affectionately referred to as S&B) is a Modern AU!Dynasty Warriors/Shin Sangokumusou fanfic written by the badass Rydain starring the characters of Cao Ren and Lu Meng. The story is, simply put, a romantic one - focusing on a period in time where both Meng & Ren meet, interact, and subsequently become romantically (and exclusively) involved with one another.

People who've interacted with me know my tastes - I'm quite open about the fact that I don't feel a narrative needs alot to be excellent in my mind. The primary factors are engaging, relatable characterization and recognition of progressive politics. If you've got that, then I feel it's a good story. This piece of fiction does that and more in spades. Not only has Rydain completely satisfied the above factors, but she's also shown that she has a clear understanding of her audience, of appropriate narrative structure, and how to allude to an expanded universe while still maintaining a clear focus.

My favourite sentence in the entire 12-part drama is this.

Ren roamed over the lean planes of Meng's torso as his companion explored his burly chest, the slight softness of his belly.

This is enormously fulfilling; this sentence alone. This sentence acknowledges mutual consent. It acknowledges and rightfully glorifies difference in body type. It gives way to a mutual exploration of one another. This is a gentle sentence, but a sentence that's full of conviction - they are genuinely interested in learning about one another, and thus exploring rather than patriarchly conquering one another's bodies.

It's a beautiful passage, and I feel it's an excellent representation of what is so great about this story. This story breaks destructive BL archetypes (coded in a heteronormative manner) by embracing two characters who are more complex than any such archetype and exploring them in a realistic, down-to-earth manner. Furthermore, it breaks Western slash fiction archetypes by embracing both characters desire to learn and genuinely know each other as people; focusing on communication and growth rather than coercion and backhanded manipulation. This story is a hugely progressive change of pace in that not only do the two of them love each other, they choose to be loving to one another. In the politics of love, where we as a culture treat ourselves as completely lacking any choice in whom we love, this is absolutely staggering.

Rydain also demonstrates her understanding of the source material considerably, and with a great deal of subtlety. Many of the minor supporting characters and cameos only show up for a scene or two, but they contribute to the story without feeling shoved in and her interpretations of the characters allude to interesting personalities. Zhen, in her single scene, is shown to be intelligent and perceptive (while still having the patriarchal perception of prize forced upon her). Lu Xun is handled honestly and elegantly, youthful and energetic. Xiahou Yuan & Cao Cao both shine considerably. Xiahou Yuan with his incredibly down-to-earth and practical blue-collar approach to sexuality, and Cao Cao continues to impress with a charm and wit only he has.

But what makes these inclusions especially useful is that they don't overflow with redundancy - it's, for the most part, assumed that these characterizations are similar to the ones in the game series and thusly builds upon them. She organically creates behaviour that is appropriate for the scene, with no excess justification or explanation. It's a clear demonstration that she knows her audience; she knows her audience knows who these people are and that they don't need to be explained, just recognizable. And she does exactly that.

Furthermore? It's a story that involves two men whom are attracted to each other (thus in a homosexual relationship) who have a happy ending. There's no real Gaynst here. There's nervousness and frustration at times, but ultimately we have a story where two incredibly admirable characters manage to be genuinely interested in one another. That's it - there's no catch, no depressing extra ending, nothing. In the cultural climate we have that consistently shows us that anyone of LGBTQI2S status is doomed to a life of oppression and woe, here we have a refreshing alternative that also doesn't feel infantile. This is a story about adults; not a childish love story.

Their development as a couple is in-character and patient, to the benefit of the story. These are both characters whom can comfortably sit and wait; and the pacing reflects this. There's not a rush, but there is an excitement in the tone. A good one. The intrigue and chemistry are disgustingly huge in this. This is not a story that relies on fate or any sort of hammered external force to bring them together. They aren't star-crossed lovers who are destined to meet. They're two human beings who chose to pursue an interest, to maintain respect and care, and to go through with the honest work necessary to a romantic relationship. This is both in-character and culturally meaningful.

It was so nice to read this tale. I had been putting it off for a few months, and when I finally did read it I promptly punched my forehead. What had I been waiting for so long for? Whatever the reason, it was to my detriment. This is the standard for fanfic that deals with BL, slash, or any equivalent - it's in-character, it's engaging, it's fulfilling, and it's politically progressive. For something like this, I couldn't dream of more.

Oh, and because I could... Man!Yue Ying design! )
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Basara thoughts & character list! For reference. [May. 27th, 2009|03:49 pm]
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[Audio |Karen Aoki - Englishman in New York]

So in a fit of fun, I'm going to make what I hope to be a list of the characters from Dynasty Warriors (AKA Shin Sangokumusou 真・三國無双), Samurai Warriors (AKA Sengoku Musou 戦国無双) and Sengoku Basara (戦国BASARA) that I adore right now. And because you people know how much I love bullets, it's now time for a bullet list. And then another with thoughts about Basara primarily.

Musou/Basara Favourites!

Basara thoughts!
  • Pixiv has at least 150 pages of Basara fanart. It's great for people like me whom just click the next button, scouring for pretty work. Hell, the amount of nice fanart is pretty much why I ended up enjoying Basara!Nagamasa so much - his personality is pretty typified, but I adore how he looks. I think it's so cool - plus his hair is really neat. I adore Oichi's design too, but she's such a giant blob of wangst that I can't like her as anything but an interesting visual. Nagamasa does slip out of that with the Tsundereness of his personality, to which I often like pairing him with anyone. He's clearly my BasaraBike.

  • Basara!Toshiie, while having much less depth and development than Musou!Toshiie, is someone I find far more likable. Him and Matsu are thrown into roles with likable personalities, though - they don't go through any major development because in terms of the ensemble cast, they're just the normal nice people who are in love. They don't have any hammish hang-ups or the like. They're just a couple who like each other. Granted, I adore Matsu because she's far more responsible and imposing, but Toshiie gets love too. Plus, he's more or less naked which provides me with wonderful fan service. Seriously, they must have amazing sex. And alot of it.

  • Conversely, most of the cast I can care to write out. I'm like that with CAPCOM ensemble casts - one or two characters will stick out that I really adore, while most of them I can dump in a truck (it's not exactly the opposite with KOEI though; since for the most part I like all of KOEI's design sense). Masamune I would be quite happy to throw into a volcano, Mitsuhide is an excersize in archetypes I couldn't care less about, and Itsuki I actually am really bothered by (due to the actual persecution of the Ainu people, and characters like her I find incredibly infantile). Everyone else is just archetype supefied (this isn't to say that the characters I like aren't archetypes; rather they're just types I like), in that I'm not bothered by them so much that I just don't care. Though I will say, despite Kasuga's hypersexualized outfit, her actual character is pretty badass - and she has a great ENG voice actress in Devil Kings.

  • By the way, how badass was it that SPOILER for Basara Anime Nou of all people killed Tadakatsu?! That was seriously badass. If anyone could have used such a random feat as killing Tadakatsu, it's Nou - who's often just put on a bus or what not because no one can figure out to do with her. Well, fuck you all! Nou freaking killed the strongest person in the entire land.

  • We - the earth itself, even - definitely need more of Taroumaru, Jiroumaru, Saburoumaru, Goroumaru & Shiroumaru. Because they're so damn cute. For reference, I do have bias towards Taroumaru (the hawk) since Tarou's a bird, and Shiroumaru since I have a thing for white wolves.

  • I'm so conflicted about Nobunaga's design. On one hand, I really dislike the blatant horns and skulls and the like. I hate Nobunaga's head, I really do. On the other hand, I love everything else! I would prefer a palette a bit closer to the Musou!Nobunaga (and I can see why they didn't, since Musou!Nobunaga the first pretty much had that exact sillhouette). Following through with that, Basara!Nobunaga doesn't even come close to the depth and borderline-brilliance of the writing that Musou!Nobunaga had. Nobunaga's entire role in everyone's story - in Japan's story itself - is excellently constructed (for a less subtle version of the same narrative, watch Cao Cao's narrative in DW6/SSM5). Nobunaga's riddles and attitude are incredible, and KOEI managed to create such an excellent fusion of the 'Fool' with the 'Demon King'. An excellent, excellent character. Basara!Nobunaga doesn't even come close; he's just mean. One could argue that Basara!Nobunaga has depths unexplored, but they game hasn't even alluded to said depths - there's no indication of them even existing.

  • While I love Musou!Motochika, I will never ever deny how fun a roll in the hay would be with Basara!Motochika. The man's tongue is out all the time. Do not tell me he doesn't know what to do with it.

  • Goddess, Masamune is annoying. His funky Engrish isn't even cool, but the absolute worst example of the hamminess was when he, in his fight versus Keiji in episode 3 of the anime, he summoned a dragon made of lightning to win an even fight. He's not a gracious loser or anything. And his poor horse! What, did he glue those exhaust pipes on?!

  • Keiji's interesting; in that I like this Keiji more than his Musou counterpart but wholeheartedly believe that his Musou character is far more progressive and has a higher design quality. Musou!Keiji's mere appearance makes you uncomfortable (in a conventional context). He's not 'well' put together. His hair is styled in an unconventional manner. He's loud and brash but thought provoking. He's another character like Nobunaga, a patriarchal type - the lone wanderer - preaching and practicing radical feminist politics - the practice of love. The main difference in terms of personality between Basara!Keiji and Musou!Keiji is that Musou!Keiji actively manipulates and acts in a manner to force people to defend their thinking, whereas Basara!Keiji is pretty surface based. Musou!Keiji is all about making you uncomfortable; about making you re-consider what you know.

  • ...My thoughts about the depth of Nobunaga and Keiji can pretty much be applied to the games themselves - Sengoku Musou is a much more thoughtful game, whereas I enjoy the aesthetics and primary colour-based visuals in Basara more. But Basara has little to no depth. It's like trying to swim in a puddle.

  • Love Basara!Ranmaru. Love the boy; he's adorable. Musou!Ranmaru is pretty boring, though. ...Really nothing more to say.

  • Freaking love most of the alt. outfits. Love Green & Black!Kenshin from Basara X. Love Nou's two outfits, love the cow-print from Matsu, love Toshiie getting clothes, love Kasuga with the scarf, love pecservice from Kojuuro, love most of them. Can't think of any off the top of my head I'm not liking, really (except for some of the palette swaps from Basara X).
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Downward spirals and a desicion! [May. 27th, 2009|01:06 pm]
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This entry has been incredibly difficult to start and even consider, and for a very what-feels-now-silly reason. Guilt circles aren't very affirming. It's been more than a week since I posted last, and part of the reason for that is because I'm tired. My nerves are raw. I feel unappreciated. And I want to surround myself with images that interest and spur positive feelings in me, that invigorate me rather than drain me. Part of the reason this has happened, though, is because I've allowed something to really harm my forward momentum in terms of self-care and self-love, thus starting the evil downward spiral that doesn't stop.

That something is letting myself absorb the truth that I could be doing so much more in terms of anti-oppression politics accompanied by the unhealthy belief that the longer a break I take, the more I'm a traitor to the cause or the like. And I'm sure much of this started because I started having judgmental thoughts about other people whom I feel are allies who were too tired to 'hear about the bad things in the world'. When I heard that, I was incredibly angry (I mean really angry) because it's such a demonstration of the class privilege that the Western World has (among male privilege, able-bodied privilege, etc.).

How on earth can you willingly, like that, when I feel you haven't done anything, turn your back? You're able to turn your back, you have the privilege of being able to walk away from the problem and the oppressed group doesn't. They don't get to run away from the problem. You can escape, leaving them behind.

That's how I felt. To a degree, I still do.

The main differences now are that once again - and it is something I had forgotten to cultivate for a time - is that I'm trying not to conflate the need for mental and emotional space with desperate health-endangering want, and that I'm trying not to judge the size of contributions.

I still become incredibly angry at what I feel is cowardly escape, but it isn't fair to judge said action. It isn't fair to me to judge that person's personhood on the fact that they ran away from a situation - because they find that situation so frightening that it induced that action. That person was so afraid that they gave up all and every sense of control and ran. It must be horrifying for that person, to see something so incredibly terrifying that they flee at such - to be so desperate to run away like that. The breath in your throat stopping and your mind processing the fact that there's a threat that can hurt you so desperately, so wantonly and completely. I sympathize with that person, and realize that I should direct any anger I have left towards the person who created such a situation (unintentionally or otherwise). And just because I'm angry at that person does not mean I get to take away their dignity or personhood.

What I'm attempting to say is that there are different triggers for different people, and that's it. It's not better or worse or on a higher or lower level. It's just different, and it's not fair for us to judge. If someone gets burnt out from just one hour of writing, then that's all they can do. Only they can determine whether or not they want to alter their limits in some manner. We can encourage and support, but the decision is theirs. And they aren't us, thus it's not fair for us to try and coerce or control.

At any rate, that sort of judgmental tone has turned into a more calm and logical voice. One that recognizes the benefit on your own contributions while acknowledging the benefit of contributions other allies make, praising such. Recognize that it's all important because we cannot succeed if the effort isn't motivated honestly (i.e, not through coercion or fear or desperation), it will lead to a re-enforcement of patriarchy. The voice recognizes the need of mental and emotional health. And all of that is being applied to me again, because I need as such.

And it is a privileged act. Sadly, it's an incredibly privileged act to step back from the struggle - from any struggle - and take a time out, take a breather and recuperate. Being able to rest is an act of privilege. Think for a moment about how absolutely disgusting that is - that rest itself is a privilege. Rest from a struggle is not something we all have access to. As someone who's attempting to divest of privilege as much as one can and someone who has issues with guilt, it's clear that this could - and as you've seen, does - lead to downward spirals of negativity. At this point, I refuse to play that game.

All of this thought has more or less led to the understanding and desicion that I have nothing to feel guilty over for not posting in a time, but I critically recognized that part of the reason I didn't post for so long was that I myself was not motivated to write politically. However, I was motivated to write personally (which is also political, but by extension).

Thusly, this journal will be a journal that does do both, despite my original intention. It will involve both critical looks at media and politics from a primarily feminist perspective, and it will also involve more casual things like what I watched or the like (which will also come through a feminist perspective anyway). I may begin or start or create a group journal where a number of us are able to contribute with feminist critique, but for now my journal is mine. I shouldn't feel guilty over a lack of attentiveness or for not following some arbitrary schedule that isn't beneficial if it denies me the action of following through with my feelings in a health-minded manner.

And there's nothing wrong with that.
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Metropia, race politics and Fat-O-Sphere amazingness. [May. 13th, 2009|08:38 am]
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[Audio |Yumi Kawamura - Can't Stop Loving You]

This entry (except for the end), while being posted at 8:45ish in the morning, was written the night before at around 11:10PM.

So, I haven't been able to write that review I said I would since it seems that said bit about my internet working? Was apparently a lie. We need a new modem as well. That (effectively removing any potential access I could have had to the story) in combination with this strange headache I ended up developing when I got home pretty much killed any good mood I may have had throughout the day.

Thank god I stayed up late enough to catch Metropia - even the 5 minute flashback to the last episode was badass; showing a scene which many young people whom are gay whom have had to come out to parents of South Asian descent could identify with. And now Raj is showing glorious man breast while dancing with his archetypical fag hag. I openly admit to being a breast man, and man breasts are something I do love. Also, there's this really awesomely sexy East Asian bartender. He looks a little like Robin Shou.

Hey, Maya's still here! She didn't leave! Though her brother, Raj's boyfriend, did! Gone to Paris! What the hell? People with money should not be prone to drama. Becuase trips like that happen. And yes, I am totally biased towards the plots featuring the people of colour; because I am so oversaturated with dramatic plots featuring white people. I'm like a sponge that drips white people drama.

Anyways, what I can talk about is Lessons From the Fat-O-Sphere. This book is fricking amazing; and one factor that I adore - and was wondering if they were going to go through with it - is that they used written material and sourced from their blogs. A number of the anecdotes the two of them noted (the women with the thyroid tumor, The Fantasy of Being Thin, and how Kate met Al) were all stories that were shared and completely absorbed and affirmed by their respecting FA communities.

The book has the greatest practical dating advice I've ever heard; and again they affirm the fact that most of us probably know this but can't seem to believe this and alter our behaviour in a beneficial manner. This particular passage stuck out because this was something I did and still do (though less than before);

...there are obviously some standards on which you don't want to compromise - and we would never recommend dating someone you don't feel any sexual chemistry with, just because he or she is there and willing. There are going to be people you're just not attracted to and never will be - and vice-versa. These people do not make good long term partners. But do evaluate if you are willing to compromise on some things. You know what else kept Kate single for ages? Her list of characteristics any potential partner would have to have: tall, funny, Ivy League-educated (even though she wasn't!), unflaggingly feminist, clean-shaven, bespectacled, nerdy-cute, gainfully employed in an artistic field (yeah, seriously), ready to live in either Canada or the States according to her dual-citizen whims, willing to consider being a stay-at-home dad... and it went on and on from there. That guy? Does not exist. Being willing to give a little will open up your dating pool a lot more than losing fifty pounds would.

While not an exact copy, it's pretty darn close. If there's one factor I won't compromise on, it's the unflaggingly feminist part - but really, everything else is more or less up for grabs. It needs to be because projecting to that degree is completely impractical. If I want someone with those traits, well - I have to be willing to be that full of conviction and boundary concerning my own identity, and I'm not because I'm aware identity is fluid. Long story short, one has to be adaptable because people are sort of human beings.

Outside of that, they have a ton of practical dating advice. It's really what stuck out to me the most, and really made me realize that I am looking - all the time, in a manner - but that I'm also practically engaged with the idea that I don't need a partner to be happy. It's partially the entire 'want what I don't have' idea. But I still want it, and if I ever decide to go through with it, I trust that I have pretty much the best guide to realistic dating ever.

I suppose this goes back to Metropia, and the fact that now that I've managed to being seriously looking at white supremacy, internalized racism and class privilege, has allowed me to really open up my pool of potentials. Give me... 2 or 3 years in the past? And there is no way in hell I would have considered dating a black guy or a brown guy, no matter how gorgeous and awesome they were. No way in hell. Internalized racism did that to me, it really encouraged me to develop such a strong hate for any potential images that correlated with my West Indian background and reject it entirely.

Because patriarchy had constructed stereotypes for me to break, in order to participate seriously in patriarchy I had to openly disassociate myself from said stereotypes in order to break myself from them. That means developing and nurturing a prejudice against dating anything but guys from either a White upper class background or a Chinese-from-Hong-Kong upper class background. Anything else meant I wasn't civilized; it meant I was confirming those nasty, dirty stereotypes.

Thankfully, I now have the skills, inner fortitude, and (most of all) the supportive community to nurture healthier attitudes. I'm still divesting of all of that internalized racism (not to mention sexism and homophobia and ableism and fat-phobia and ageism and classism), but it's a day-to-day battle. And again - I have help. Part of the reason I'm able to claim such independence is because I know I have the help to fall back on. Realistically, it's the only healthy option.

What's also healthy for you is enjoying my new Gaia avatar, because it is super awesome.
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Quick notes! [May. 12th, 2009|08:50 am]
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[Audio |The Hollywood Session Orchestra - Neudaiz]


  • My internet service at home has returned! Hopefully I will force myself to be more active on three fronts - MSN (because I miss Chin and Ouiji and people), CHAnges (because it's Gaia), and here!

  • My next writing will be a glowing, unabashed review of the SSM/DW AU fic "The Scholar and the Brawler"; a slash-fic featuring the pairing of Lu Meng and Cao Ren. Short version? It's phenomenal and the bar that other slash writers need to set themselves to. Progressive and interesting characters, knowledge of the audience, and glorification without jobbering are just a few things this story gets right.

  • I finally obtained Yue Ying's ultimate weapon in SSMMR/DWSF, the Golden Crescent (photo not mine; I plan to take one myself later). It's freaking gorgeous looking (clearly referencing both her Fury/Kakusei form which resembles a dragon, and... a dragon), looks like you can sort of touch someone with it and they'll die, and it has Range inherently as a bonus. I just went and killed indiscriminately for a while last night just because it looks so cool.

  • After work last night, I finally picked up Lessons from the Fat-O-Sphere. I finished it this morning. Longer detail will be taken in the love, but note that there is love. Huge, glorious amounts of love for this book. Huge huge huge.

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Fat-O-Sphere success & Strikeforce thoughts. [May. 7th, 2009|01:13 pm]
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[Audio |Stephen Endelman - Running to Vega]

Yesterday, I had a nice peice of writing planned - talking about how flipping amazing it is that International No Diet Day happened at all; how Lessons from the Fat-O-Sphere came out and it's a freaking NUMBER 1 BESTSELLER.

Let me repeat.
A book about FAT ACCEPTANCE & ACTIVISM IS A NUMBER 1 BESTSELLER.

For emphasis.
FAT ACCEPTANCE NUMBER 1 BESTSELLER.

Number 1 bestseller at a shack down the road wouldn't matter. The point is that this book is selling. It's selling well. It's selling hardcore because people are so sick of hating themselves and convincing themselves that fat is bad. That fat people are evil.

At any rate, I am so happy. I'm going to buy a copy when I get paid next. And possibly a copy to hand around.

What didn't make me happy - thought not really mad, more just 'eh' - was that I, after a couple of days of avoiding it, finally finished Chapter 3 in DWSF, subsequently beat Yuan Shao in his legend, and beat Orochi because he needs to get the hell out of Han Chinese territory lest Nu Wa busts a cap in his scaly well-toned and angst-ridden bum, and then saved villagers because Cao Cao and his classism is mean. Then my battery died and I didn't bother getting out of bed to plug it in and try to save the data. But I can easily do this again, really. Once I figure it out, it isn't difficult - it just requires patience and awareness. And a lack of hand sweat.

So, here's some thoughts on the game. Since I seem to love lists... Here's an bullet list!

  • It sounds odd, but this game is a great way to find out who you favourite characters in the series are outside of gameplay. This is primarily because you aren't locked into a single moveset for a character. As well, you can figure out which movesets you actually like and which you aren't so fond of. The openness and amount of choice really allows you the oppurtunity to figure out character outside of system, and system outside of character, and then look at the two together.

  • Subsequently, it also helps you figure out whom you're pretty dissappointed with. And one character I've become really disenchanted with is Zhen (though that's not SF-specific, but from 5 onward). It's not even her outfit - that for the most part is actually fine, if not very dynamic from the back. No, it's her performance and shoved-back-ness and the fact that her primary weapon - a flail - is wielded like she's a performer (plus she's a clone of Diao Chan, and that's not an appropriate fit). Zhen should be fast, elegant and cutting you like a sharp knife. And both her sieyuu and her US VA were directed in a manner that's too sultry for her own good.

    For goodnesses sakes, KOEI - Zhen's primary archetype is that of a queen. Hell, she's your primary Lady of War. She's a Queen of War. She's dignified, stately; of all characters, she should be the character who matches Cao Cao himself in calm, cool attitude and elegance. And the thing about her sexuality is that she should look good for her. Zhen shouldn't be a progressive character in terms of appearance - she should be patriarchally beautiful because Cao Wei in these games is primarily about conquest and skill. What she should be is patriarchally beautiful because it's her standard and want and because her beauty is indicative of power that she has access to.

    We need to see more of her motivations, her goals and her dreams. She can't just be Nouhime. She's not Nouhime (Musou Orochi/Warriors Orochi nailed their interactions, but not their motivations well - it's needs to be more about themselves and their desire for power). Zhen is about domination and power and nobility; not servitude and generousity. Whenever Zhen is helpful, she's commanding. She'd rather die than surrender. You're lucky to get her help. That level of presence and command has been totally obliterated, and it's frustrating and I'll stop here otherwise I'll go on for a while when this point should be a paper in itself.
  • One character who didn't fit into my above strategy though, is Huang Zhong. I love Huang Zhong. I have a big, big fake boyfriend crush on Huang Zhong. I liked him enough in 3/4/5 (barring the ageist jokes sometimes thrown at him, but they aren't endorsed by the text so that's even better), but was never wowed by his visuals or shillouette. And I've always had trouble playing with him, and struggled through using his moveset (I'd always found his initial attacks came out too slowly for my liking, in both 3/4/5 & 6). His design in 6 really blew me over the edge into adoring him, and then he recieved a new moveset in SF. What I'd seen of the moveset wasn't very inspiring, but when I actually got the game I realized that the video wasn't about the dynamism; but rather a showcase of each animation. And Huang Zhong's new moveset is dynamic. So in this case, it wasn't about giving him another moveset but being wowed by his brand new one.

  • At the same time, the fact that Xiahou Yuan was given this moveset... it's somewhat problematic. Xiahou Yuan being set up as a rival to Huang Zhong isn't an issue. What is an issue is when it's being predicated on a rivalry between archery (and if that's the case, Sun Shang Xiang better get in there too). Xiahou Yuan's claim to fame wasn't archery - it was speed. KOEI can focus on this and cover two fronts; being historically & culturally referential and being progressive. How often do you see big, hairy fat guys like Yuan being famous for lightning quick raids? None, and a good deal of that has to do with the prevalent fat-phobia that exists in both Japanese and Western culture. KOEI can seriously put their own dent in the fat hatred by doing this, and really provide some healthy cognitive dissonance. Also, as a side note - I love Yuan's SSM5/DW6 design because it's unapolagetically erotic in a fat context. As long as they keep presenting him as good-natured, competent as well as tough and in-your-face, we could have a progessive & likable icon.

  • It feels so much like DW4. This is a good thing, as DW4 was considered the pinnacle of the series in terms of sales and characterization (though the game itself was far from perfect). DW4 was my first entry into the series (notably since they had a female character whom actually wore practical, epic armor). DW4 was also a great initiation into the series since it provided both all-around narratives (in the Kingdom Musou Mode) and individual narratives (Legend Mode). We aren't getting Legend Modes in this, but we do get the Legend Duels (which do well in terms of introduction) and we get the nicely written and concise biographies (as a side, why do they keep writing that Guan Ping dies at Fan Castle, and then having him show up at Wu Zhang Plains? Is he a ghost? Can we having a floating Guan Yu head ghost boss, then?). And the set of renders used for these games really clearly dileniate personaltiy via body language (especially the new renders from SSM5S/DW6PS2 and Huang Zhong & Xiahou Yuan). Even in terms of atmosphere and palette, it feels like DW4 (SF's Battle of Chang Ban completley made me think of DW4's Guan Du in terms of environment, for example). It's even as frustratingly hard as DW4. In short, DW4-like-feel is a good thing.

  • The interface is wonderful... until you get to accessing the Pause. I don't like pushing Home (too 'takes you out of the game'), but maybe I should get used to it since most of the time when I pause it's because I'm getting beaten like no tommorow and need a breather to re-assess. Did they do this because of the multiplayer function? It would have been great if we could just hit start and the game would pause automatically, but that was seemingly troublesome for reasons I'm unaware of. Looks like I'm stuck with the Home button.

  • Charges attacks are much more useful and much more varied. This is helpful, seeing as how extended combo play is predicated on linking attacks and your main attack string is only 6 animations long. One of the notable differences in movesets is how one launches a ground-based opponent into the air (though it's not hugely diverse). For e.g and because I am one-track-minded;

    Cao Pi's Longsword moveset is very useful and easily accessible. A good right-of-the-bat combo for him that I use is (and for the record, I'll just assume you're locking on for these);

    S, S, S x R+T -> S, S, S, etc.

    Specifically, the animations go like this. The first S, S, S is Cao Pi's first three normal string attacks. While the third hit connects, do the R1+T - it's a dash launcher that's very simple and useful; Cao Pi does this sort of into-the-air-cartwheel slash that launches the enemy. It's a great, simple launcher because it keeps Cao Pi in the air for a bit at the same time and same height as the enemy, so you can just go into a simple slash spam.

    Yue Ying's Bladebow, being a much less traditional weapon and thus having less to project onto it, is less inclined for basics like Cao Pi but does have fun. My basic combo for her goes like this;

    S, S, S x R+T, (while enemy is in the air and you've landed) R, S, S, S, T, T, T

    The first S, S, S are Yue Ying's slashing attacks with the blade - Yue Ying's dash launcher is different from Cao Pi's, though. It's an incredibly useful attack, where she flipkicks forward into the air at a 45 degree angle (think a Flash Kick from Guile that moves forward, if you can reference it) and then she dives into the ground with her legs first at a 45 degree angle. The dive is an AOE attack that surrounds her body, launching everyone into the air, including her initial target. So he's still in the air after the two hits. It's at this point you dash foward towards them - because he's still in the air, she'll dash into the air after him. Once she's off the ground, then you hit square 3-4 times (just not five or you can't cancel safely) which is the single shot arrow attack. At the fourth hit, cancel into the T, which is a machine-gun-volley of 5 arrows. Tap T twice more, and the third T will forcibly push her away from the target. So she's safe and got a good combo in.

    See? Charges are useful again.

  • The new palette swaps range from good to AFRIKINMAZING. For the most part, I was pretty unimpressed with the palette swaps available in DW6; the new two swaps are so far above them in terms of fun and quality. Yue Ying in a navy blue outfit with light blue hair, and Huang Zhong in blue with black fur. Lu Xun in teal. Lu Xun in teal.
  • Why is Yue Ying not in the inter-chapter movie that features every officer? They definitely don't have the excuse of her not appearing as battle hardened or casual in a CG movie scene. Even Wei Yan got in. Wei Yan should be in. She should be too.

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Re-Introduction, Catch Up & Ideas! [May. 5th, 2009|01:04 pm]
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[Audio |KOEI - A Ways Away]

Alright, so I now have an Insanejournal! That's new! ...Not really. But most notably, this desicion was spurred by two factors;

1) Livejournal is not accessible at my place of work. Thus the death of writing for a year, among other things.
2) Scans Daily moved there after the deletion of it at LJ.

It's a move that made sense; personally, I'd been a bit tired of seeing that and other communities I'd enjoyed (Improved Archie, anyone? I do miss Space Islam.). Obviously, layout and userpics are a bit sparse right now - that will come with time and the like, but first I want to get back to the writing. Most of the people that had followed my LJ beforehand have been kept in touch, but for those of you who are a bit out of the loop.

So, in bigger news for the past year;


  1. My maternal grandmother's moved in with my family since about November of 2008, her alzheimers is reaching late stages. I've more or less come to terms with the grief and her eventual death - I've always been special to her, and she's taken care of me a great deal since I was an infant - but my Mother is going to need support. It's also really notable (culturally and historically) that her strongest memories are still of us, and of entire chapters of the Bible (New Testament).

  2. I'm an uncle - my neice, Saniya Lalaina, was born on March 16th of 2009. I promptly did her birth chart, and it more or less pits her as one of those bohemian-intellectual-types who's going to be more interested in emotional adventures than intellectual ones. I'm excited to see.

  3. In the beginning of April, I ended up catching the Chicken Pox! That was an odd experience - they lasted for about a week, and weren't itchy. My face is still scarred, and that (as well as a sort of beard) are probably the longest lasting reprecussions of such. Also, I watched too much TV - more than I had in the past 4 yearsish. Notably, most TV programming is still really mysoginistic, transphobic, fat-phobic, racist, classist and ableist. There's hints of progression, but that's about it.

  4. I ended up returning to Koei Warriors after my 2007 rage over Yue Ying's SSM5/DW6 design; especially since they've made minor changes over time to major iconography that helps with the resurgance of character (primarily consisting of giving her a narrative that focuses on her character, a new weapon that is entirely appropriate and impressive, and a new form that highlights war-like armor). I ended up becoming relatively good friends with a few, and oddly got in contact with the former owner of the site, Chin Sun. Then I became a moderator for a few months, which was a nice experience. However, the KW staff team (specifically one person, but they weren't named individually and it wouldn't be ethical to do so here) posted an announcement that was incredibly sexist in content and tone. That, combined with a consistent anti-feminist tone and a growing list of other responsibilities, helped me to decide to quit being a moderator and an active member (though I'm very happy to say that there are no visible bad feelings on either side). I never saw my leaving mentioned or the like, so I'm not sure if it was publically noted - though that's a moot point.

  5. Subsequently, I've begun several projects in CHAnges - I'm working on a slur-etymology-offense-list as of now, and later I'd like to begin allocating resources and writing for an FAQ and other progressive politics works.

  6. I bought a PSP! And Dynasty Warriors Strikeforce. Clearly, this is a huge deal. Also of note are the extra palette swaps, which is pretty much why I bought the game. Teal Lu Xun with brown skin. Teal with brown skin. Paper mirrors! Awesome. As such - finding such a grand paper mirror has caused me to play with only him for the past 2 days. Considering I play as Yue Ying almost fanatically, this is pretty huge (for me, worthy of going in huge year stuff).


Anyways, I'm going to try my best to get back into writing consistently. Therefore, I have come up with a list of topics of stuff I intend to write about. That's right - get ready for another ordered list. But this time it matters? I'd really like anyone who bothers to read this to note any that really stick out and comment that those are ones they'd be interested in reading; because that will help me actually write them - also, if you have ideas (geared towards topics dealing with Feminism, Race politics, Queer politics, etc.), share them! Thanks in advance to those who do or don't but considered!


  1. Representation of Women & Feminism in Dynasty Warriors, Samurai Warriors, and Warriors Orochi

  2. Characterization of Women & Queerness in Shin Sangokumusou VS Dynasty Warriors

  3. Feminist representation of Yue Ying: Iconography, Narrative & Gameplay

  4. SEMI-COMPLETE - Queerness, Race politics, Gender Fluidity & Lu Xun has become Racial Politics, Fandom & Lu Xun, but needs to be expanded to include analysis of Japanese attitudes towards Chinese history.

  5. Feminist Politics with Sailorneptune & Sailorpluto

  6. Why I love Gail Simone's Wonder Woman

  7. I really hope the Blue Lanterns represent Hope & Faith well and Don't Die, and other Rainbow Lantern thoughts

  8. The fluidity of Chun-Li

  9. Feminist, Class & Race politics in The Legend of Chun-Li

  10. I am so excited for Greg Rucka's Batwoman

  11. Politicizing Avatar - Why I am going to make Children of the Future watch this

  12. Renouncing Patriarchy & Huang Zhong

  13. Radical Feminism & Dynasty Warrior's Kingdom of Shu

  14. Interpreting Folktale & Representations of Zhuge Liang's wife

  15. Comparison of Faith & Progressive politics - Kanetsugu Naoe & Chosokaba Motochika

  16. Bromance, Homoerotic Friendship & Samurai Warriors

  17. Shudo & BL; Ranmaru & Nobunaga and Kanetsugu & Kenshin

  18. Racism within Gaming Fandom

  19. Donna Troy, and the Tragedy of What To Do Now

  20. Chun-Li & Reclamation of Dignity within Agency-filled Sexuality

  21. Sun Quan - Queerness, Class & Noblesse Oblige

  22. KOF Women and the Cutting Room Floor

  23. Japanese Fan Merchandise & Mysoginy

  24. I love Scott Pilgrim because it's in Toronto and because I abhor Scott Pilgrm

  25. Kogepan is amazing and it deals with hardcore Victim Politics

  26. COMPLETE - A Sense of Closure - Justice and SSM5/DW6's Ma Chao.

  27. Female Protagonists, UDON's representation of Chun-Li and Yay

  28. Persona & Feminism AKA Why 3 and 4 are awesome

  29. Persona 4, Homosexuality, Homophobia and BL fanworks

  30. Astrology, History and lovely Oversimplification

  31. DW4 - The most thoughtful additions to the series

  32. Identity Politics & Wu

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